Prayer moment

I was sorting my unarranged documents (in short, BASURA!!!) in my room when I chanced upon my notes on prayer and meditation in our Retreat for Daily Life (RDL). RDL is a prayer activity and spiritual experience which is offered at the Center for Ignatian Spirituality (CIS) right at the remote retreat house Sacred Heart Novitiate (SHN) in Novaliches. SHN is where the aspirant Jesuits of Ateneo take their first 2 year before moving on to be a novitiate. Well, I have to admit, I came from rival school La Salle, but I just love the Ignatian spirituality; there's something in it which makes my spirit free and makes my heart beat for more of life's surprises.

Anyways, on with my "paghahalungkat". I saw an article of what it is to desire God. Sabi sa Hindu anecdote, may isang villager who asked a holy man what it is to desire God so deeply. Ilang beses bumalik yung villager dun sa holy man. Finally, when the holy man saw the villager's persistence, he told the villager to meet him in the lake where he will take his bath. When the villager met the holy man in the lake, the holy man held the villager's head firmly and put it firmly in the water for a few minutes. E di nag-struggle for air talaga yung villager. When the holy man asked the villager why he struggled in the water, the villager answered, "because I need air. If I have no air, I will die." The holy man said, "They day you desire to seek God like the air we breathe is the day you find Him."

Sobrang naiyak talaga ako nun! I felt that I was not desiring enough for God. I felt that I was desiring for... uhhmm, Spiderman???? .. more than God. And that made me feel remorseful. Then, I realized something about prayer and desiring for God....

I have just realized a wonderful thing today. Each day of our life passes by without us realizing the great works that God has made in our life. When we ask for the grace to seek God, we feel the pain because we realize how empty we are. We just don't discover our emptiness because of a lot of things that cloud our vision of our inner self. But when we ask for God's grace to desire for God and we realize our emptiness, joy sets in; we realize that there's a lot of room in our hearts for God to fill in. And that's how we finally find God. :)