Searching for and finding love

Many people always tell me: Love does not come when you search for it. Love comes at a very unexpected moment, during a time when you do not long for it, or probably when you do not expect it anymore. The more you search for love, the more it hides itself from you.

I have been in love almost every day of my life. Whenever I meet someone new and I see something mysterious or interesting in him, I find myself being drawn closer to that person. Circumstances would make us see each other at the mostunexpected times. Then, we get to know each other more deeply -- get to know our families, our past work experiences, our principles and beliefs. Then, if I think he fits my essentials, I find myself falling for him. Then, I would get hurt because little by little, I realize that we are not meant for each other or he's not interested with me.

I've been rejected too many times, being passed up by men, probably because they're intimidated. I've been hurt and I've felt insecured so many times. I'm on the verge of giving up, that someone will have the courage to pursue me, to tell me that he loves me and he's willing to pursue me and cherish me. I'm beginning to believe that that day will never come.

But hope springs eternal and God will someday surprise me with His gift for me. He will also give me the grace to overcome issues in my life to prepare me to receive him when both our hearts are ready. I can't wait for that to happen.