Back from Holy Week

Ang galing ng Easter Sunday namin! I had my first time tour at Enchanted Kingdom! Would you believe, first time ko lang pumunta dun, kahit na taga-South ako? Sa sobrang tuwa ko, tinext ko lahat ng mga kakilala kong taga-Laguna. Ang saya ng mga rides! As in mapapadasal ka talaga (hehehe) kasi sobrang steep ng mga rides! Nahilo pa nga ako kasi 2x ba naman kaming sumakay ng Space Shuttle!

Haayy, ang daming pictures. Kakatuwa! Ang ganda rin ng view ng Laguna and SSHway from the Ferrise Wheel (Wheel of Fate ata tawag dun). Sana madala ko family ko dun. :)

on love, discoveries, heartaches and freedom

nase-stress na ako for the past 2 weeks! sobrang bago itong role ko. i've been asked na to step up and catch up na sa mga details ng mga issues sa project. i need ASSISTANCE!!! kaso nakaka-frustrate, kasi yung taong inaasahan kong sasalo sa akin wala... PARATING OFFLINE!!!! parati pa akong iniiwanan! tapos may gana pang tumatawa-tawa pag sinasabihan ko... nakakainis na! at ang mas nakakainis pa dito, hindi ko makuhang magalit sa kanya kahit na nabubuwisit na ako sa kanya!!!

ayan, unti-unti na kaming tinutukso sa project. masyado raw kasi akong concerned dun sa tao. nakakainis nga siya e, kasi teambuilding nga di ba, e siya naman hindi nakikisama. :( nakakaiyak na talaga. huhuhu.... hindi ko na alam ang gagawin sa lalaking ito...

oh well, that's life.... may mga taong pasaway lang talaga. sana naman magbago na siya para hindi na ako mainis parati sa kanya, hahaha!

bakanteng weekend....

haayyyy... ang sad naman, hindi kami napasok ni vance sa theater singing. gustong-gusto ko pa namang mag-aral mag-solo singing. dinrop pa naman namin yung personality development course under gina alajar... sayang yun! pero anyway, at least makakapagpahinga ako pag saturdays. sana naman makapag-outing na kami sa office!

nakakatuwa nga pala mga nangyari kagabi. nag-usap-usap yung team, me, and ronc about their concerns sa project. since bago sila, ang dami nilang concerns about what our manager thinks of their performances. personally, they're doing well; kelangan lang talaga ng formal training sa ABAP. e sinabak agad kasi sila sa work e, wala man lang brownbags or trainings. mabuti na lang nandun si chris to give them crash courses. mukha namang na-appease sila; i will be the first one to assure them that their contribution to the project is very much appreciated.

tapos nung gabi, ang galing! we were supposed to go to a teammate's birthday party... actually, inuman. e since hindi pa kami nakakapag-dinner, punta muna kami gerry's. ang tagal-tagal naming nag-dinner at nag-usap, hindi na kami nakapunta sa party. hehehe... at least di ba, nakalabas naman yung team! i've been wanting these people to have a break (have a kitkat!) kasi sobrang pagod and frustrated na sila. they need a breather. sana magawa namin ito every friday. ;-)

sunday na bukas... kanta na naman sa church! i'm glad i am able to do the thing that i love even once a week. sana matuloy yung concert.that's one of my items in my things-to-do-before-i-turn-30 list. :-)

Moving on???

How will you know when it's time for you to move on? How do you know if you're still doing your mission in the work that you're doing? How will you know if you have really finished your mission or you just want out of your situation?

I have gone through the same experience and I thought I'm really called to another mission place. I spent a lot of time in prayer and meditation. I really thought I have what it takes to be calledto a veryh different line of work. But slowly, the Lord took away from me the desire to do that line of work. I just sensed the Lord telling me that He wants me to stay in my profession and in the company that I work in. He told me that I have something to finish here, something to prove to myself. And then I got into this project....

May the Lord sustain me and keep me strong. May He grant me the wisdom that I need to answer all the questions that face me. May He grant me courage everyday.

Deja vu?

Naalala ko lang with all these blogging, si Doogie Howser, M.D., the youngest doctor ever. Shempre palabas lang yun sa TV dati (nung early 90's ata, hehehe). Idol yun, ang talino! Basta, at the end of every episode, naglo-log siya sa computer niya ng mga insights niya, realizations, and experiences niya. Cool! :)

Yesterday pa rin, 03/02/2005

Reading yesterday was Mt 5: 17-19. The verse that struck me was "whoever breaks one of these commandments and teaches others to do the same will be called least in the Kingdom of Heaven; but whoever does them and teaches them to others will be called great in the Kingdom of Heaven." Again, naalala ko na naman yung mission ko which is to be a light to the mission place that God gave me. I am asked to guide people, inspire them, give them hope. Right now, a lot of my friends and colleagues are in despair because they feel shortchanged, they feel left out, uncared for. I have to be there for them to lift them up and to encourage them. Lord, help me be a light for them. Amen. :)

Living with a purpose

It's the start of a brand new day! Ang daming dumarating na challenges ngayon. Parang akala ko magiging ok na ako ngayon sa project ko... yun pala ang dami palang issues. Gusto na nilang magpa-roll off. Ngayon pa? Ngayon pa na close na ako sa kanila? Kelan ba ako mase-settle dito sa kumpanyang ito?? The only constant thing that I see here is change. Palit-palit ng project, location, teammates... nakakabaliw! But I sense that when I came here in this project, the Lord has set for me a purpose. May kelangan akong gawin sa project na ito. Kung ano yun, hindi ko pa alam. :-(